Don't hold in your secrets. Never

More proof of the horrible abuse and neglect I lived with from 1972 to 1985 at the hands of my father and step-mother.

These messages were from a neighbor and childhood friend.

I was conditioned to long periods of verbal abuse.  It's probably the reason I put up with it from Wael for so long.  Because I was used to holding it all in and pretending everything was normal.

It only took 46 years

but someone in the family acknowledges that everyone in the family (and just about all friends of the family) knew I was being abused by my father and step-mother and no one did anything about it.  They all just let it continue from the time I was 5 years old till I was 18 years old.

This apology came from someone who was not in any way responsible for that or for the abuse.  It's not from the person who did the abuse.  I know I will never get a real apology with accountability from those people who were directly involved.  But the truth has a way of coming to the surface.  It always does.

I hope one day I can get a real apology from Wael - complete with an admission of the facts and accountability for the damage, pain and hurt it caused.  I can always wish.  The truth always finds its way to the surface.

Throwing it all away once again

My life goes into the trash once again

My book will be out by next year

I have debated making this an e-book.  I may release it as both.