You are responsible

You are responsible for the things you do that harm other people.  No matter how far you try to run away   You can’t escape the truth. 

I was never given the chance

interview

I am being interviewed by a magazine tomorrow.
I am spreading the truth about narcissism and what
narcissism does to the victims.  

Diversion - another form of abuse

Blocking and diverting is a form of verbal/emotional abuse

Blocking and diverting is basically changing the topic of a conversation or refusing to participate in it to gain control.

When my husband switches topics, he reveals that he doesn’t see me as a rational person who would notice that the conversation no longer makes sense (and sometimes, I don’t). Or, as Patricia Evans says, he refuses to act like a rational person. You can’t tell him that though!

source: https://verbalabusejournals.com/about-abuse/what-is-verbal-abuse/examples-of-verbal-abuse/blocking-diverting/

If you cared about

If you really cared about how I was doing you would
Have listened all those times I tried to tell you.
All the times I tried to tell you.
And you would have listened when ashraf tried to tell you.
You hurt me beyond belief and what
You did to me was unjust.
It’s not something I have to accept
It’s something  you have to live with
And you will have to answer for one day.

You think I am holding a grudge for no reason
Well when you try to tell your husband how you feel
And instead of listening he says I’m out of here
Get over it....
No, that is the reason.
That is the reason.

No, you are not the victim.
I was. I am.

from 0 to 60 in a split second

My needs never mattered

Things you throw away

Let no one

11 years ago today

11 years ago today Wael said to me "don't marry me I will ruin your life."

I was surprised because it had been his idea to get married to begin with.

A week later:

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7 years after that - he ruined my life.
I really loved that man.

New supply

He was out looking telling women he was getting divorced and could do whatever he wanted.  At home he was telling me he didn't want a divorce.  He was always ready for a better offer to come along.

You never get it with a narcissist - you only get thrown away

Disconnected

It's their perception of everyone else...

Everything is always someone else's fault

When you are with a narcissist everything is always someone else's fault.  NPD abuse victims feel that they were always being blamed for everything and they were - because behind closed doors he is taking all his frustration and unhappiness out on YOU.  You are by default the closest to him, so you are by default they only one being abused by him.  Therefore, in his mind, you are a good scapegoat to blame for everything he sees wrong with the world.  In other words, normal things that most people adapt to, but the narcissist can't cope with when his world feels out of sorts.

Fuck You wael

fuck you

What I miss

Why they move on

because they don’t want to face themselves or the truth

message

Not my reply:


This is my reply:

cycle of abuse

They don't remember because they don't want to face the facts

Cheating = looking for a new supply

All the damage that was done

i believe so

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Bread and Butter

it took me a long time too

to see what a piece of shit loser he was.  I was fooled. 
I remember how mad he was at me for being fooled by Y***er.
Now I know why.

Truth Loyalty and Full Understanding

Inside the bubble

Goals

Not in the true sense of the word

They know and don't really care

murderous crime is right

Regrets