One day

One day he will see that the job didn't matter
the place didn't matter.
Because fate and God put good women in his life
more than once
and he could not control the inner demons inside of him
to prevent them from being destroyed by his own words.
His words killed.  Not just me, but all that came before me
and all that will come after.
What matters most in this life and in this world and the next
is Love.  
He loved and he was loved and he was loved again.
But he doesn't love himself enough to hold on to those
who love him.
He pushes them away - out of fear - out of shame - out of guilt.
Out of jealousy and the need to pursue what he thinks is important.
When Wael is an old man - and everyone around him is gone
and he has long retired or been pushed out of his "career",
when he sits alone and looks back over his life will he be sad?
Will he finally feel something then - the things he only feels when he hits rock bottom?
Will he feel sorry for what he did to Elena, to Deanne, to the others?
Will he feel regret for what he did to me and how he destroyed my life and destroyed my future?  
Will he realize he had the one thing he wanted more than anything in the world and he killed it - again?
No.  Because he runs from one to another - from one person to another - from one place to another - whatever keeps him from having to face the horrible things he does to people (and yes, verbal abuse is horrible).  
To the personality disordered individual people are replaceable.  When you are all done you just go get another.  Your tastes are not discriminating - you will go after old and young, beautiful and ugly - anyone who you think will be submissive enough and gullible enough to not see through your persona - through the things you do that don't make sense. "I know how to make people like me" is what you told me once.  "Older women like me."  
Of course they do.  When you play a role - when you assimilate everything about yourself into the life of the target you become them.  It's mirroring.  You need others around you to prop you up and make you feel good about yourself because of the positive affirmations they provide you when they simply don't know the truth.  
They won't know until it's too late.
Until they loved you with everything they have and you have destroyed them.