False hope

Wael said he didn't want to give me false hope about us being together.

Truth is - that is ALL he ever gave me.

Every "I'm a changed man" was nothing but false hope.

Every "I'm sorry"

Every "I know I am difficult to deal with"

Every "I love you"

WAS NOTHING BUT FUCKING FALSE HOPE.

The only way to see the truth in a relationship with a person with NPD is to see it from the end and look in reverse.  It all makes sense that way.  His projections, his gaslighting...

No Wael.  The truth is I NEVER STOOD A SNOWBALL'S CHANCE IN HELL WITH YOU.  
ONLY I WAS THE LAST TO KNOW.

He knew what was wrong with him from day one.  He knew what he would do to me from the day he said "don't marry me I will ruin your life."
No, I don't for a minute believe it was "unintentional."  It was the same scene that had played out in every single relationship he had.  The only difference is I stayed 8 years - no one else had stayed longer than a few weeks or months.

Fuck you Wael for what you did to me.
Fuck you. 
Fuck you that you thought it was just going to be you sailing off into a new life and me into the arms of a new and improved man.
Fuck you that you thought I didn't love you but was only obsessed (that was a projection because you knew)
Fuck you for saying "why would you even want to be with me?" when I told you I really loved you.
Fuck you.  For all of it.
I was good to you Wael.  
I did not deserve the psychological and verbal torment you put me through for petty bullshit and because YOU can't be happy.  You had a lot to be thankful for with me but you were always looking for something more.  Nothing was ever good enough for you.
I hope you self-destruct as you no doubt will.
I hope your worst fears become a full-filling prophecy.