I am devastated.

I want to go back in time

I don’t want to go forward.

Everything is in the past

Nothing is in front of me.

I just want to go back to Cairo.

And go back to my love

My love

I lost my whole existence when I lost my wael

I loved you wael

Like you will never believe.

You will see one day

How much I loved you

I still cry everyday.

I am dying for the things he did to me.

I am dying for the things he said to me

the ultimate betrayal I never saw coming

But i said it over and over and over

stop hurting me....

I am a person....

You make me feel like a machine....

Why can't you just stop....

I was begging for my life

and he killed me anyway.

This is not the person he met.

I was alive.

I was beautiful.

Now I am gone

My world went black

there is no starting over

there is no new love at the end of a rainbow

there is only the truth of loving someone with your whole heart and soul

and being abandoned.

What I loved was evil.

I failed to fight that evil thing inside of him.

Please see the darkness that has entered my soul.

please see that I am not ok

and please stop telling me I will recover from this

can't you see I am already dead...